How did you feel when you bought your first vape?

Obviously this is for 18+ year olds

I am 18 and have never bought a vape because I don’t know how to without feeling awkward.

Recently my family went through something quite traumatic and I want to make sure I don’t fall back into my old addiction.

I KNOW vapes are addictive, but I honestly don’t even like them that much and I just want to try it for every now and then (more like socially) because currently it would be healthier than my previous addiction.

So, how did you do it?