Feeling conflicted about the music I've been listening to.

Sorry for the vague title I wasn't sure how to word it.

I guess for some context. (Apologies if I shouldn't talk about weed) I think about a week ago now I took a weed gummy and didn't have the greatest trip it, as it did trigger my moral OCD. Now during the trip I was also listening to music, and on my Youtube feed a song from Inabakumori (Vocaloid producer) popped up and I clicked on it because I think the song was Lagtrain and I hadn't listened to it in a while. A few more songs from them started to play and I basically got hooked and there's two reasons (current fav being Floating Moonlight City). The first reason being they're just really good, the second reason will be a little difficult to explain.

(This is probably really common) I'm a very like emotional music listener and certain music (some that come to mind is Insomniac from Memo Boy) makes me feel different kinds of emotions and feelings. The common feeling I get is remembering/feeling stuff from my past, or imagining myself at certain places like outside a train station platform at night but more blueish(?). It's all very specific but my brain is weird and I struggle to explain it. But all of them pertain a certain feeling but I don't know what that feeling is. Maybe melancholy? numbness? When this stuff happens it almost feels like I'm actually there but from more of a 3rd person POV, but I'm still inside my body though? This probably is maladaptive daydreaming but it feels like it's not at the same.

On to what I actually want to talk about which is making me worry a little bit. The Vocaloid that sings the songs from Inabakumori is Kaai Yuki, which is specifically designed to be 9 years old and the voice bank was voiced by an actual forth grader which makes me feel uncomfortable. What doesn't help is that the thumbnail for Floating Moonlight City has her wearing high heels and bunny ears but also her regular outfit of a hoodie. I know it's such a silly thing to be worrying about as there's nothing sexual going on but I also have to deal with POCD. I never actually liked the thumbnail either just the song.

I'm not sure if Inabakumori's songs are some of my favourites but I do wanna get their Vinyl's, so maybe they are. It just feels odd to have favourite songs where the Vocaloid is a 9 year old and that Vocaloid's voicebank is from a 4th grader. Especially since those songs lead me to have those sorts of feelings I mentioned above.

I'm not as knowledgeable about Vocaloid compared to my friend but I know in cases like Miku she can be any age you want her to be, so you could make her 21 for a music video or whatever. I'm just unsure if that's the same for this Vocaloid (which I don't think it is).

I know it's all so silly but this has worried me a little bit. I don't think I'm reassurance seeking (apologies if I am) but I just felt like I needed to ramble about this.