Wondering if Im alone in this - hating exploration and worrying about missing an importnt item

"I wonder what's over there?" is the fun, for most players i see playing, but when i enter a new area: "Uggh, now ill have to explore/scan this entire huge area which is possibly completely optional (i dont know yet)"

I feel like I play to finish games, instead of enjoying them. In personal life, im someone who always fails to finish my tasks, so maybe i treat games as thing to finish so that i get a fake sense of accomplishment.

Should I go left or right here?

Should I fight that?

Am I underleveled?

Did I miss a weapon?

Is this the intended order of events?

Did I permanently ruin a quest?

How do you guys seem to enjoy massive open ended games like these ?