Depression that my religious revelations were a part of my illness

Psychosis can feel great. I was convinced that i had a cosmic mission from god to fight demons in the end times, I had a special insight to the spirit world, and god was inserting me thoughts in my head to give me guidance in my life.

My doctor tweaked my Thorazine and it’s been a tidal wave and reality check, I realize now that everything I thought was chemically induced. I’m struggling to find meaning again and rebuild my identity. How do you cope?