I think merey saamney duniya ke saarey larkey kharey kardo, to bhi mujhe koi pasand nahi aaye ga

I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me. I have been looking to settle down for quite some time, and it’s like I have talked to thousands and thousands of men, like purey mulk ke mardon se merey baat ho gayi ho gi. But I don’t like a SINGLE GUY.

True, there are some men that I end up liking a bit and want to pursue smth with them, but it’s like an unconscious part of me doesn’t want it and always ruins it by saying smth stupid and/or insulting them.

I have been looking to settle down for quite some time now, but it’s not working. Every guy I talk to has some flaws that I just don’t wanna compromise on. And the guys I do like, I tend to mess it up with them and they leave. It’s like I just don’t want things to work out, but I know I really do, so maybe I just manifest it somehow? Or perhaps I just don’t want the responsibilities that come with a marriage, even tho I think I do.

I don’t know what’s going on. I’m doing my best, but it’s just one guy after another, one talking stage after another at this point. Why is this happening. Idk what to do. Anyways; this is a rant. If anyone is going through smth like this, please share some advice. It might help me.