Undiagnosed and 40

So I've always felt different than "normal" people, just wore the weird title for decades. Then I read a post about AuDHD, and it blew my freaking mind! 😱🤯 I've struggled for so many years, misdiagnosed as a teenager and treated like a lab rat. 😞 Not really sure what I'm even trying to say, because I know inside but typing it for others to see isn't the easiest for me to do. I struggle with executive dysfunction daily, always wondered why I was lazy but had so much energy. Why I always over share or don't talk at all, even though the thoughts are there, a lot already rehearsed in my head. Why I have to force myself to eat, because sometimes the food looks awful, even if it's something I like usually. Just thought I was broken living in a world full of put together people. Honestly I just wanted to know why, for decades.