Keep getting triggered at home

It’s been at least 3 years since my last attempt and I have managed it well and learnt the symptoms etc. and what to do and how to stay abit better

My birthday is on 16th and my family keep trying to make a big deal of it and if I’m being honest - I’d much rather be dead to be honest. So I’m trying my best to fuckin handle it but they keep nagging me about the birthday and I can’t tell them anything.

Birthdays always trigger a lot as it’s another year I wish I wasn’t around but still am. And I have no friends to talk to or anyone so I’m just there

Fuck this all