She blocked me, unblocked me, then disappeared.

I was in a long distance relationship with a girl I met in the most random way possible. We met on a plane. She asked me to help with her luggage, but I couldn't because I was injured. Later we ended up sitting next to each other. The flight got delayed, so we started talking. We talked all flight and she asked for my socials before we went our separate ways.

Few days later I texted her just because. And somehow... we just clicked. For first 3/4 months we talked almost every day. Our time zones were terrible, so we didn't FaceTime much. Most of it was voice notes and texting, but we'd spend 3/4 hours a day replying to each other. It never felt forced. Eventually I told her I liked her because I didn't want to keep investing that much time without knowing where it was going. She felt the same, so we started dating. She was a very peaceful, private person. No drama at all. We just kept doing what we were already doing, except now there was flirting, talking about the future, and making plans.

Then life got busy. She had work. I had some stuff going on for about two weeks. I told her beforehand and we still checked in with each other whenever we could. We just didn't have much time to call.

Then one random day... I was blocked. An hour later I was unblocked. I asked her what happened, but she avoided the conversation. Two days later she ended the relationship. She said she was overwhelmed, wasn't in a place to have anyone in her life right now, and that being in an LDR made her question whether it would ever work. She also said, "Maybe if you move here someday, we'll see." What more can I do? I accepted it. I even asked if we could stay friends until then because I didn't want to lose someone I'd spent months getting to know and had imagined a future with. She said it wouldn't be the same, but agreed. After that I wanted a couple of days to myself. Over the next 20 days she blocked and unblocked me around 15 times. I was so confused. Eventually I had to reach out on another platform just to understand what was happening. She never replied. Never even opened the message. She just blocked me everywhere.

Today marks 6 months since the breakup or I guess... since her breakup. I never wanted it. I still miss her. Sometimes thinking about it for too long literally makes me feel sick. I still love her. I may be stupid but I genuinely don't know if I should finally let go or if I should actually chase the life we once talked about and move to her continent this year.

She's in Ireland.

I'm in Asia.