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I've been noticing I've been body checking A LOT recently and I'm trying to catch myself from slipping back into full blown anorexia, this is the first sign for me. 

I had a surgery and was on a liquid/soft food diet for 3 weeks and 50g fat restriction. I was doing really good before this. I was 220ish lbs beforehand. After, I dropped to 187. 

My brain heard "see? Not eating makes you lose weight! You gained weight because you eat a lot!" And I learned from tracking my meals after my surgery, I barely meet 1k calories on a good day. 

I keep pulling my clothes tight to my body and seeing the hourglass shape. But then I look down and Im so surprised my the mass in front of me that I start thinking I'm pregnant because I don't eat, I couldn't be getting bigger? Trying to make excuses or something?

While in the hospital for my health issues I lost a lot of muscle mass that I was really proud of building after mostly overcoming arfid and anorexia. I just got so depressed. Skin hangs where there was tangible evidence of my hard work, how far ive come in having a balanced diet daily or just eating one thing on a bad day instead of nothing. 

If anyone has any advice on how to combat these feelings, like your own personal journey, I would be grateful to try anything within reason. Even things to bring up to my therapist when I see her at the end of the week would be appreciated. 

Hell, just vent on here about your own ED too 

Girl breakfast?