(Poem) One sided love

how much you can grow
And how much effort you give
Is everything beauty cant show
So please just live,

chase your dreams,
And achieve your goal,
Me being by your side it seems,
Is not a wish of your soul

So even though I wanted a forever,
Something that even time cant part,
All i know is that my endeavor,
Could never create that kind of art.

The art that makes your eyes glow
when you do the things you love,
The art that makes you shine so,
Everybody can see, even from far above

That you are truly someone unique,
Someone indescribable with a single word,
resilient amiable humorous, but not weak
The way i view you might be overheard

By your loud self-criticism, worries, fears
By all the other's stories, talent or success
I'll be here for you even in future years,
Love yourself, your beauty, your kindness, you are no mess!

I tried losing my feelings,
seeing you as just a friend,
But every thought of you stings,
I don't want this to end!

Even if it takes months, years I won't forget
How much I fell for you being you,
I consider myself lucky that I have met
A woman going in her own canoe.

A woman that goes at her own pace
A woman that does everything to chase,
Even though she had to face
The worst chemistry exams, those to erase

The things i really wanted to see
But with you it was never meant to be
The paradox of wanting you to be free
But also praying it would be me

To hold you tightly in my arm,
To see you laugh with all your charm,
To fall over and over, in every single way
For your beauty, your laugh, every day.

I wished for future adventures with you,
Hiking, traveling, viewing the night sky
We have infinite possibilities on what to do,
guess "us" won't ever be, and so ends july.

I imgined what it was like to share a kiss,
To me that would be a bliss,
Under the stars watching the moon rise,
Looking straight into your fascinating eyes.

Holding you tightly, feeling your breath,
Not wanting to let you go till my death.
Whispering "I love you" in your ear,
I fear, this emotion has to disappear.

I never wanted to feel this romance
I admire you, it truly makes no sense
Everytime I see you I steal a glance
Having the desire to share a dance.

Sometimes I think "Let me wait I'll try"
The past few weeks all i did was cry
I'll give it my best, do everything i can
"Will she let me wait a whole lifespan?"

May your future be full of joy
so you can still smile so cute, oh boy!
Might never be able to get you off my mind
Will for ever be grateful for you being kind.

Though your soul I couldn't find,
and our paths never truly aligned,
I have to tell you, you are not behind,
Everyone goes their way I have to remind.

I am so proud of who you became,
Of what you achieved, isn't that insane?
You really shouldn't feel any blame
But rather learn from it, and then gain!