Shouldn’t have kept the peace

I loved your son, and he took advantage of that to emotionally abuse me then abandon me without taking responsibility. I shouldn’t have kept the peace with you for so long. I had messages drafted explaining that the way he was behaving was emotional abuse and I didn’t know what to do anymore. That it wasn’t acceptable and I just needed him to tell me what he wants so I wouldn’t be waiting forever if he didn’t want me to in the first place. But I didn’t want to hurt feelings. I didn’t want to ruin my chances of him coming back. And now I know he’s never coming back and I’m crying everyday like an idiot. You’re a good person, how could you enable this behaviour for months and let him hurt another person like this?