My double rant on my internalised homophobia and coming out

Ever since I was a child, my conservative immigrant family described white people as “progressive” and “sexually immoral”. Now that I realised im gay, I always find white guys the most attractive due to this. Whenever I see an attractive person from a different race, I immediately lose interest after remembering what my parents told me as a child.

Also to rant again, I wanna explain how I came out to 2 of my sisters.

The first one:
We were talking about me becoming an atheist (our family is Muslim and my immediate family knows about me not believing), eventually the topic moves towards people becoming degenerates and lgbtq topics in schools. I tell her that they teach them that to normalise it due to people being discriminated against, and then straight up told her im bi (im gay lol). Then she looked at me with disgust and then started making arguments against it like it’s gonna turn me straight, which I responded and she shut up. Later at 1 am, she sends me a video of a child saying “mama” to its two fathers, then they said there’s no mama, then the baby cried.
I asked her the next morning why she sent me it, and she nervously said that she saw it on her feed, I angrily told her to not send me shit like that, and that I don’t want kids anyways and left. The topic is never mentioned now and we’re back to normal.

Second sister:
I told her at like 9pm that I want soft serves from McDonald’s, she didn’t really wanna take me due to it being late, but I pressured her to take me. When we parked to eat the ice cream, I told her I need to tell her something, she was asking what it is and i nervously told her im bisexual (larping as bi is damage control atp 😭). She surprisingly didn’t have any strong feelings about it, she was saying that many muslims struggle with those feelings and that it’s natural and stuff, I was honestly shocked. Obviously the Muslim stuff didnt apply to me and she knew that so she couldn’t really say anything about it.

I plan on telling one of my other sisters about this, and then not telling anyone else, they’re the only people I trust with this to be honest.

But anyways, sorry for my long rant. It’s late where I’m from so I probably made a lot of spelling mistakes writing this lol. Just wanted to get it off my chest.