My best friend hates me

I don’t know how to put this into simple words but I’ll try. Me and my best friend have been going through a rough patch this summer. I’ve felt as if I’ve been the only one trying in this friendship because I’m always the one texting or calling and if I don’t then we wouldn’t speak at all. I’ve brought this situation to light many times and it’s gotten to the point of begging which is what I’ll do to keep our friendship alive.

Recently we had an argument regarding this situation where all I asked for was just the same energy I give— texting and checking in once in a while and a few callas here and there.

My friend called me stupid and said I needed mental help. They also said we aren’t in a relationship and I’m starting to get really weird about this. They said that I’m growing to be unhealthy for myself when all I asked for was a few texts and calls.

I don’t think what I’m asking for is a relationship or something difficult. I want us to work out as friends and that’s why I keep trying and bringing up this situation.

But after everything my friend said and what they called me, I just feel sad, numb and disgusting.

I don’t know where to move forward and their response to my claims was to not talk for the entire weekend which I don’t understand because that’s the main thing I’m upset about.

I complied with their wants and I feel so alone and terrible. It actually feels like I’m just existing after what they said and I don’t know what to do.