Bi and monogamous with a woman

Hello. First time ever being on this sub.

I’m a 29 y/o man (30 at the end of this month)

I’ve known my girlfriend (also 29) since we were 18. (We dated for a short period back then). We’re both pretty much gay but happen to have fallen in love with each other.

I was married to a man and she was with a nonbinary individual and now we are together. Have been for a little over a year now. We’re madly in love. I can’t see a life without her.

But shit, I miss men. So much. I don’t know what to do.

I can’t lose her. Not again. But I feel the need to be with men just lingering on my shoulders like a weight. We’ve talked about it but she is strictly monogamous. My marriage was not. So that’s another thing that I’m adjusting to. I’m just struggling guys. I need some guidance or help or something.