Conspiracy theorist dad driving me to my wit’s end (possible psychosis) (REUPLOAD)

This got taken down after I tried to update it on r/mentalhealth because the word count was too long. I’m not going to edit anything I said besides this. I’ll post the update in comments!

16M (transgender), turning 17 in 2 weeks. My dad’s always been a conspiracy theorist, especially about the mandela effect stuff. He always says crazy stuff. I always think it’s crazy. Then it turns out to be right.

He just told me about the CERN-something and how it changed the timeline. He said he didn’t want to freak me out cause he knew I didn’t like hearing about this ”crazy stuff”. He said it changed the timeline from Chic-Fil-A to Chick-Fil-A. He’s not really making sense, though, because if it was always chic-fil-a then what was the mandela effect? Tnat it was chick? He says it changed the timeline and the spelling. He couldn’t find anything to support his theory online and now he’s pissed. He’s saying this isn’t even a theory, that it’s true.

He says a bunch of other crazy stuff like this. If any of the things he says is true, then what’s the point? Why should I try and live a normal life if reality isn’t what I thought?? If nothing’s what I thought and the shit he says is true? He’s said things like animals can understand your soul (and that souls exist) and he’s said some things about the afterlife and god and such. What he also said is that he knows in his heart of hearts that I am a woman. I don’t remember but I think he called me inherently feminine or something.

I‘m scared of Dad being crazy but I’m even more scared of him being right. I feel like he’s a secret genius. It’s gonna turn out that he’s right, and I’m going insane because I just can’t handle the fucking truth.

Dad knows I struggle with psychosis at times. I feel like this isn’t good of him to say to me. I’m sorry if I’m not making sense because I’m scared and trying not to cry. I trust my dad because i love him and he doesn’t lead me wrong but this is scary. I’m really really scared that this is true. I don’t see a point if it is. I wish he wouldn’t tell me these things. What‘s scary is that he doesn’t even think they’re conspiracies. He says them like they’re facts. I don’t want his things to be facts.

Im not proof reading this. If something doesnt make sense feel free to ask me to clarify.

UPDATE: It’s hours later, I slept for a bit, I’m probably going to go back to sleep after writing this. I’m much calmer now and not as scared, nor am I questioning reality as much. Or, like, at all. I feel mostly fine now. Updated in comments (not the first one where I’m tweaking lmao)