I don't know if I was molested back then or not.

I was an 11 year old kid when these things happened and I just forgot about it like it never even happened. My whole family with my mausi's family went for a religious pilgrimage. It's a huge temple of Shiva with thousands of visits per day.

We were there in line for quite some time. Got the job done and were just chilling and roaming here and there in the temple courtyard. I was with my brother, he'd gone to drink water, when a guy maybe in his 30s passed me and touched and rubbed my genitals and after that I was completely blank, couldn't process what had just happened. My brother came, and I was just staring blankly at the guy, couldn't think of anything.

After a while, i thought of telling my mom about it but shrugged it off because I thought they would make fun of me like they always did back then, because I was a quiet and introverted kid who was bullied and beaten up in school and everybody in my family thought of me as weak and dumb...often ignored by most of my family members. My own sister used to make fun of me in front of everyone, and she still does to make herself look more strong and funny and a better kid among our family members.

But meh, I couldn't care less, I've always been stayed away from my family matters. Kon kya kar raha hai...kisne kisko kya keh diya, kiska jhagda hua kisne kya kharida, jitne lafde inn sab se dur rehne ki koshish ki hai. And that's much better.

Also I think when I was in school, from 4th to 8th, I was molested by my own classmates, I don't know if I can call it molestation. What do you call it when some kids your age try to touch and rub themselves to your body and genitals. I don't know why they did this. Maybe I got into the eyes of everyone.