Going back

Hello everyone. I’m 26 years old. I’m posting this because this is the first time I’m going back to a grocery store job I used to have 9 months ago. I was doing really well and mentally I felt awesome there. I felt like it was a second home and my coworkers were really nice. but I had changed the job back in Sep 2025 because I had found my first office job. Then unfortunately 5 months later I was laid off due to things out of my power. So I ended up being unemployed for like 4 months and now I work at a Home Depot where I’m not having a good time. I had really missed my old job at the grocery store a o I reached out to my employer and things got moving to where I have my full time job back and I will be starting soon again.

I feel wierd about it because I have never been back at a previous job before? Will things even FEEL THE SAME?

I kinda feel like a failure because In my eyes I left for a better job and my mind is telling me why the fuck did I leave in the first place if I had not gone for that short - lived office venture then I woulda been at this grocery store job 2 1/2 years of experience. Now I have this weird gap on my resume.

I’m also pretty depressed overall because I get migraines and sinus issues everyday cuz I’m sorting out my Medical insurance stuff. And I even wonder if I can return to the physical labor of that grocery store job…….. cuz is is kind of physically demanding…. But I enjoyed it overall. I have many questions that nag at me and I haven’t even returned……