Healing & struggling

hi all, i posted here asking if i should save this relationship like maybe two months ago after our huge fight during our vacation after we had moved to my home country, together. i left, or its more appropriate to say that i stopped talking to him after that argument, only exchanged a few words affirming that i would want him to move out because he said thats what he wanted. he texted a week ago telling me “thanks for abandoning me in a foreign country” as if my actions were unearned. i just feel guilty. I do feel bad that he moved all the way here, presumably for me, but at the same time, i just cant stand the mistreatment anymore. im just full of guilt, and now he blocked me everywhere bc he truly thinks hes the victim. he even told my mom, defending his verbally abusive behavior, “that i only told her she was lazy.” lol. anyway. im just trying to get by but the feeling is so HEAVY today. like insanely heavy. :(