Trying to avoid relapse after a decade

I haven't cut myself in about 11 years and I thought I had the urges pretty well managed, but after starting SSRIs after a pretty bad depressive episode they are back with force. A coworker of mine has visible scars and it never bothered me to see them for years, now when I do my skin ITCHES. I really don't want to relapse because frankly it's a pain in the ass to deal with all the baggage after. But nothing else really scratches the itch. Maybe I'll get an old tattoo touched up because that's at least a socially acceptable self inflicted wound lol. I don't really have anyone to talk to about this and I just needed to get it out of my head. Thanks for listening.