Probably going to do it this weekend.

I’m 21 and 6 months/111 days sober of alcohol. And I miss it. God, do I miss it. I miss it to the point where I want to mix my medication with some whiskey; I’m on medication where I can’t alcohol with it, but that’s how I only used to drink. I miss my ex best friends. There’s so much emptiness now that they’re gone. I can’t even talk to my current friends and only trust one or two of my closest right now with a lot of this. I feel like I’m too boring to live. Don’t have enough value or purpose. Like I’m forgettable. I already have a plan that can work. I know what to take. I’ll be 21 years old and dead. DBT did what it could. I’m done.