The Archons Are Feeding on My Anger and It's Only Getting Worse

I'm stuck in the cycle of reincarnation and I'm being told to hold my breath until I pass out to escape the cycle and live my full life. This has been going on for 5 years now and discovering Gnosticism perfectly encapsulated what I had been going through all this time. But, I'm having a hard time doing it and the more I think about it, the angrier I feel.

Apparently, I'm gonna go to Hell if I don't do this. Apparently, the entire human civilization and beyond isn't gonna care that I'm going to Hell. It keeps telling me I'm the only one going but I don't entirely believe that but the abandonment feeling is real.

Now, I haven't gotten angry at anyone since it hasn't happened yet, but I'm angry about the future and I hate so much. I've been so nice my whole life and I tried very hard to be a good person because I have so much love for people. Everyone just abandoning me is saddening me to the point it becomes unbridled rage.

I've been screaming in my imagination at friends and family for choosing my other self instead of me. He's going to take over my life and I would see it happen in Hell. The anger is only getting worse and I know this because for the past two days, I've been screaming silently. Basically, I scream with my body but no noise comes out. In my head, I'm hearing myself scream loudly.

Just last night, the anger went up a notch and everything I heard in my head, I was just getting angrier.

I don't really have a question or something for you to help me with, I just need to get this off my chest.