Facing hardships and suffering all alone

Im a female in mid twenties and am going through so many hardships this year. I have been crying almost every day and I am all alone and no one knows or I can’t talk to anyone. Last year, 2025 was my best year and this year has been the worst year of my life. Last year I had also met someone and fell in love and wanted to get married. My mom didn’t approve and I fought for it but it didn’t work out. I ended it with the guy in Dec. Ever since the breakup, I’ve been crying every single day, and I’ve felt so low, so unhappy, lonely, I’m feeling distanced from everyone, my friends have moved on and are busy with their lives so we don’t meet, and on top of that my family doesn’t know what I am going through and there is no support from them. My mom not once asked me how I was doing after I ended with the guy. She didn’t care and fought with me to stop talking to him. And she still keeps fighting with me for small reasons. Whenever I share an opinion, she turns it into a fight and says that I am so negative, that I am trying to tell her what to do and giving her a “shut up call”. My mom told me I’ve become a negative person, very negative and need to change myself. It breaks my heart cause I love her soo much and do so much for her and she thinks that I just have bad intentions and negative thoughts about her all the time. She’s never given me any love, support or affection and I can’t remember the last time she hugged me. It’s so heartbreaking to me because all my life, I’ve only been told that I’m the most kind, loving, positive and caring person. And now my own family tells me I am negative. I feel like she guilt trips me so much and I’ve started keeping an arms length with her because all she ever does is fight with me for the smallest things. She wants me to marry someone she likes who is has a high education and is perfect so she can tell people and be praised.

it’s been 6 months and to this day I’m suffering alone so much, I cannot think of a day I did not cry. I prayed to Allah, asked him to heal me, I asked him to remove the guy I miss from my heart and mind but I still miss him. I’m just very lonely and I feel like I’ve hit rock bottom. It makes me even more sad because I’m so young and I don’t want to get into depression. There r days where I don’t even wanna laugh or be happy and my family sees that and they don’t care to ask. They just keep saying she’s ruining the mood. It’s been so hard. Please give me suggestions on what dua to, how can I heal, I want to be happy and not cry every day. I’ve been in so much pain.