I don't know If I want to keep playing this game anymore

My life had its ups and downs, much like everyone else's, but until I was 17, my life was perfectly normal. i had friends here and there, had hobbies, interests, dreams, goals, but now I'm 21, my mental state is fucked beyond belief and I'm tired of feeling like a death row inmate waiting for their execution.

When I was 17, my mother and I moved into a new house, because our last place had gotten a rat infestation, failed inspection, and we had to move houses. I thought things would go back to normal, but BOY was I fucking wrong! We moved in next door to one of the most fucked up entities I've ever had the displeasure of meeting! Long story short, despite his being married, he kept trying to forcibly insert himself into my mother's life, typically only interacting with her whenever she was alone. He even broke into our house several times and even stole a set of my mother's underwear, threatened us with death and harm several times, and the police did absolutely fucking nothing, BRAVO, CPD, TRULY A CLASS ACT! My mom lost her house, her job, her car, her gun, everything, and I'm living in a horrific project with my uncle until I get a job, but NO ONE'S CALLED ME BACK YET! My mom's own fucking family wouldn't even help us, despite us having never done anything wrong to them at ANY point in time, and to make matters worse, I lost my scholarship and can't attend university classes anymore OR live on campus. I'm so done, I'm out of options, and I'm ready to fucking go. This world's fucked up anyway, people hate each other for no reason other than what genitalia they have, where they come from, what language they speak, AND WHAT FUCKING RELIGION THEY FOLLOW. My mother's being relentlessly stalked, no one cares to help, we tried to get another restraining order against him and they didn't approve it, and I just fucking can't anymore. Continuing would be to fucking torture myself with the same routine OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO!

So fuck it, this is my note. I don't care anymore. I just wasn't strong enough, smart enough, or lucky enough. There was so much I wanted to do in this fucked up little "world", but I guess it'll have to wait. This was all just some fucked up game we were forced to play. I'm going to give all of my stuff away, burn whatever I want to "take with me", and go.

GG, "world", you win. you snuffed out another light with your indifference. Fuck you.