I've started to self harm.

I'm 16M. My relationship with my parents is fine on the outside, but the reality is way different. I fucking hate them for mutilating me. Also, I'm gay and they're religious so there's obviously things we disagree on. (they don't know yet.)

Some days the anger is so bad that I cut myself. My reasoning is basically, "if my parents can cut me, why can't I?" They don't know about it, i wear long sleeves all the time, but I can't hide it forever. They'll have to see eventually, and i want them to. And they'll probably say i was overreacting and circumcision is fine and all that other shit. and im just going to give them a big fuck you. 

When I tell them i'm not catholic anymore (i've pretended, to avoid conflict, for a solid two years) I'm going to make sure they know why. there's a lot of reasons, but a big one is the fact that the catholic church makes no effort whatsoever to protect against mgm while they explicitly ban fgm. (and i know those aren't the same but it's so fucked up anyway).

why is this even a thing?? why are people fucking OKAY with it? im restoring but it's hard because i'll never actually get back what they cut off. im sorry, i just feel so hopeless right now.