I despise being out in public where people can look at me

I can only truly be myself when I'm all alone in my home and no one can observe me. I feel how people stare, judge and whisper to each other about me. I wish I could go out and do things like normal people but I can't, I just can't do it. I wish there was a way to be out and about without others being able to see me, that would be my perfect reality