idk what to do anymore

about 8 months ago i found out my ex was cheating on me. i got a new job in a nicer country, took her with me, and while i was helping her get a job at my company i caught her cheating.

she stole a bunch of stuff from me on her way out, including my fav guitar i had for 12 years. ive been struggling alot financially and i had to stop paying for therapy because of this.

she was also very cruel to me after we split, so i had to stop talking to her. but i have to see her all the time at my work

i believe she had checked out months before we moved and just took advantage of me and my situation

i am really struggling to live with all of this

im also sick of my attachment issues and i dont believe i can find love

i also dont believe i can find happiness and security alone or in a relationship

so im kinda done with life

i have a plan, idk when i will enact it. prob soon

idk why i made this post, just wanted someone to see how i feel i guess