I F26 emotionally cheated my husband M33 with my his best friend M32 last week.

(Throwaway account for obvious reasons)

I'm a 26 year old married woman from india posting here because I do not know who else to talk to .I had a love marriage. We were in a relationship for 3 years and have been married for another 3 years now . My husband is 33 year old and works as an engineer in a reputed steel plant .

Last year was the worst period of my life . i caught my hubby talking to his married ex girlfriend. When I confronted him, We had a horrible fight . He beat me, called me a whore by mentioning my past relationship before him, and started drinking heavily. For months he kept abusing me verbally and emotionally. He even said multiple times that he is not happy with means will marry again for the second time .

I was feeling extremely lonely and broken during that time . The only person who supported me was my husband's best friend. He would listen to me , encourage me , and tell me that everything would be okay. We started talking a lot and I slowly became obsessed with talking with to him because he was so kind and caring , somthing I wasn't getting from my husband for months .

Then my birthday came. At midnight, he climbed up to our terrace with a cake and called me to come up. I went. I cut the cake and we celebrated my birthday. He gifted me a beautiful gold nose ring . He even put it on my nose for me . I thanked him and told him how much I liked it.

At that moment, he pulled me towards him for a hug. He hugged mee tightly and kissed me . I responded to the kiss. After some time I stopped him . He respected my decision and left the terrace.

Now I'm feeling extremely guilty and confused. Nothing physical happened beyond that kiss, but I keep thinking about it. My marriage is still strained, though things have become a bit better than last year. I haven't told anyone about this.

I love my husband but the pain from last year is still there . At the same time, I feel bad for crossing this line with his best friend, even if it was just for a moment.