I've got nothing left for me at my current school and honestly don't know what to do.

I've never posted, nor did I think I would, but its getting to the point where I lwk don't know who else to ask abt things. To start- this summer has been rlly shitty so far. Im headed to my Junior year of HS, but with worry. The entirety of Sophmore year I'd been rlly starting to grow apart from my best friend- initially I thought "oh, well maybe she's got things goin on." Y'know? But.. it started to feel like every time I would try to have fun w/her, she just wasn't havin it. Unlike w/others, she'd be happy and laughing! I brushed it off.. but then she started to do things she would never do w/me, even tho we've been friends since 7th grade, and I would've had to BEG her to do smth w/me.

I'll try not to put too much out there, but we're both in a club: my boyfriend was initially apart of the club way before us but he's graduated now. But before he did, he was in the process of "training us" so that we would be able to take over within a part of the club (wont specify). My friend was a little longer there before I was.. so he focused mainly on her. But after he left (since seniors leave like a few weeks before summer starts) me and my friend were alone. The whole day last we were together before summer- she was just... off. I kept asking if she was okay n she wouldn't tell me. Then near the end, how I thought of it at least.. we got a bit heated. Not yelling, but sorta arguing? It was abt me holding onto smth that we needed to use for the club, basically saying she felt more comfortable holding it. I'll admit, I'm a clutz, but I knew I could handle it. Especially the fact that we were BOTH in this, not just her.. I ended up telling her "It's not just you running this-" then she cuts me off saying "It is just me, I know more than you, you dont know anything."

That's what cut deep... What I thought we were both supposed to be doing together as a team and FRIENDS.. seemed to have changed. After that I hadn't spoken to her for a while, but it'd been eating at me, so eventually I texted her. I'll cut it short.. but the entire time of me asking her, telling her "u made me feel like nothing" all she said was "Its summer, I want to relax." "it was nothing, whatever happened, happened" and "sorry I made u feel that way." The whole fucking conversation felt dismissed. But no, I thought maybe I was the problem! I told my other friend abt it, she could clearly see how dismissive it all was. I told my boyfriend, same thing.. People change, I get that- but its been worrying me n eating at me.. I've been dreading going back to school, having to still work w/her, especially when most of whoever I hung out with were seniors and now they're all gone. I don't know what to do.. my other friend and boyfriend tell me to stay in the club, to work harder and learn more, but I'm stuck- I feel lost and empty nowadays.

Is this just school drama? Should I rlly just "get over it" somehow? I dont know- its been stuck w/me in my head. My boyfriend keeps saying I need to focus on myself, not care abt others opinions and I'm thinking too far ahead into the future. But what else am I suppose to do? (sorry this post is so long, I might take it down..)