I think I'm gonna kill myself idk

I have OCD and I get paranoid it's so hard and I'm so done I'm so fukcing done with all these useless fucking pieces of shit that spend all their time on the Internet and on't understand certain disorders or those that fake it like im tired of b being here I cant take it anymore and I have to feel bad for these idiots that are faking it why the fuck do I have to be here like everyone is fuicked up and most people are such hypocrites your all jerks idk I cant do this I wanna kill myself I get these intrusive thoughts of doing it so brutally it makes mw wanna cry and no one fucking cares about it I hate this I cant take it