26 [F4M] is it weird that I want to be degraded?

I have a loving relationship where I don’t have sex at home. I want the opposite from you. I don’t need you to be nice to me. I want you to degrade me, demean me for being a cheating whore while you fuck me like you hate me for seducing you away from your wife. I want a guy who doesn’t respect me or my relationship. Be cruel with me, make me do things I would never consider doing with my partner. I want you to mess me up.
Is that too much to ask? 🥰