I don't know the fucking title jst read the content

Hey guys, I am stuck in a really bad situation right now, so I am first telling the story,

So I met a girl in jan 2025 through my one of the best female frnd. Firstly let's assume I am raj 17M the girl I like is arohi 18F and the frnd though whom we meet is

Priya. So we first met normally no butterflies no nothing, firstly we used to talk normally, nothing b/w us, had frequent fights, cause she was best frnd of Priya and like jst ki who is better frdn of her. So jumping forward to September, we went to a garba event, and from there things kind of changed, I like was little little sure ki I guess I like her, and like there were few moments b/w us few times i was holding her hands like this etc etc. And after that things kind of grew and grew, and then I did a fucked up thing, I said to arohi I like Priya,[jst because i didn't wanted to even think I like her] and Priya knew i like arohi, and I had Said that don't tell arohi about all this but but both had a talk and when this all cam together I came in b/w and I was totally speechless and then me and Priya had a fight and my apologies I dint even tried to stop or explain her[i apologied later dw] but after that we aren't frdns.

But after this I got know the priya loved me, and arohi knew it, but I didn't knew all this, and then came the confrontation part arohi asked do u like me, so I said yes, than I asked do u like me she said not sure[she had crush on me since months but only crush crush no attachment types]

Then arohi and priya had frequent fights over me that priya said why is she still with me etc etc, but even after this much fights with her 15 year old frnd she refused to leave me. Than few months after jst casually she found few chats[that was total unintentional] i had said jst once said to priya that dont think like this, I care for u I love u.. she found that things fucked up she was totally pissed off and she said no, she was in anger.. I cried, ki what have I done, but then on the second day after all this, I was on terrace crying, and she called me out of nowhere jst to check up on me, and she heard my crying voice and idk why and how, she had tears in her eye too. Then she said OK lemme think again, I said OK as u wish, see in this story u will absolutely see me as a fool but sorry I was deeply in love, and why do i love her so much, becauseafter the demise of my father in 2024 this was the first time i felt like somethingis healing me, i was in my truest form with her, i am little child with her. idk but still i think whatever there is, but there is something b/w us because if things would have ended they would have ended really early.

Then we came more closer, then comes the nightmare she tells me about her relationship, btw fucking 6 year old relationship, according to her whixh was on the end, both of them are parting ways, i was absolutely shattered after this but also she said if u want to go u can, i am not sure what will I choose, but if u stay its your choice, then I said its ok, think about it, everything was going fine, she was coming towards me, her relationship almost ended.

And bloody hell out of nowhere she said no. I was shattered again, it was now gone totally. The thing is she was fighting was her attachment of 6 years, and what she loves[me] and she choose her attachment over love.

[Dont jst say she loves her bf, no she doesn'tshe is jst attached]

Then the things got less and less b/w usbut now onwards thing wasn't going that was the feelings she had for me, she always thought, she is jst feeling attracted towards me or something like that which wasn't tru

Then we sometimes had that emotional talk, and i fucking didn't had any hope she will come back,

But guess what, things got better b/w us, and like a fool i let her come again but this time it all happened automatically, nothing was planned she ended her relationship, sorry almost ended her relationship, we both jst one step away from relationship, it was a heaven for me, my prayers were coming real, i was getting my first love, and like she had said to her bf, both almost ended things, but but but I was made fool again. She said I kinda forcing myself towards u etc etc, i am not ready to end things with him, and she went. Not went, we like had a promise ki we won't end things b/w us no matter what

So now u know the story, and yes also she called me 2 days earlier, like crying and sobbing all about it like missing me etc etc.

Now we aren't talking at all, but we aren't strangers for now, now I have the whole call, even after this much I couldn't hate her, like I am angry with her, I am pissed from her, but still I can't gather the courage to end the bond we had.

Few things to keep in mind, not one sided love story,

She still values me, she don't want to end things, I am her still one of the strongest bond.. yeah her actions don't justify it but yeah she does...

Now I jst don't know what I am supposed to do, I want to kind off take revenge but I jst can't idk why. Ik now its about my self respect and all but for the time being we aren't talking no talks, but the courage to end that bond b/w us i couldn't, if she didn't valued me enough or made me feel like I am not Important i could have done it, but what can I say....

So should I jst leave her or jst keep some distance and then after few months or years we will come back to it, Because I dont trust her but in this one thing I trust us that even if we don't talk for months or years we would came back to same..

And ik the most practical thing here is to say goodbye, but is there any other thing i can do, or should I really end things? Pls read whole things and give your opinion i am really lost rn