i keep being told im 'invisible' and 'down-low'

im 17M, and I used to be a super exemplary brother until lately. and i don't know what to do. because now I try answer as little as possible. I try 'sleeping' through ministry so I don't have to go out or use school work as an excuse. But my parents are getting on me about preaching and answering more often. they see I'm falling off. (even when we watch the broadcast I just sit on my phone and I think they know but they don't say anything, and my mum keeps asking me if I even want to be a jw in the future).
the other week, we had a couple over, and the brother said to me that I've been very 'down-low' lately (he's an MS). another pioneer sister came up to be that I've been 'invisible' lately. She even was bringing up constantly that I should go out on ministry with her on an afternoon group (but I wriggled my way out of it by just feigning ignorance lmao). some of the elders, my last two group conductors, both show me a little extra attention, saying it's good to see me at the meetings.
am i cooked?