Feeling selfish 😕

Feeling selfish 🙁

I’m in an online dynamic with Daddy for close to a year now.
He’s been away vacationing visiting family. He was back home this weekend and we haven’t had time to connect.
I’ve been communicating with him on how my day is and doing my daily routine.
However, he hasn’t even acknowledged my journal or made comments about what I wrote.
Now logically speaking, I do realize that he is busy getting stuff ready around the house etc. But….
His attention and care to me has always been infrequent and inconsistent. I left a few times because of it.
I’m craving his attention , I feel lonely.