I Don’t Do Beauty For Me

It’s not socially acceptable to say it but I have to be honest. I do not wear makeup, wear wigs, do my nails, and I don’t plan on getting all these surgeries “for me”. I do it so that I’m not treated like shit most days. I can admit I do it for other people. It’s a survival tactic and not really something fun for me anymore. It’s just apart of my routine. I have my depressive episodes where I start slacking and I immediately see the results of that. I’m not someone who can just do basic hygiene and go. The difference in treatment is insane when I do that. People are a lot ruder, don’t care to help you, point out your flaws, and get aggressive. When I’m glammed up I just get treated normally (most days lol). I’ll be chasing beauty my entire life unfortunately. I do not believe that’s all I’m worth but that doesn’t matter when I’m an outcast and still bullied to this day. Me going back to wearing no makeup and just being bald is not going to help my life in anyway. It never has.