If you want someone who will relinquish control and pretend to be completely dependent on you from day one, I'm not the person you're looking for.

I don't know exactly what kind of blackmail dynamic I'm looking for, I'm just too tired of having to think about it. I am autistic, and I tend to be very rational, overthink, I can't relax, every second of my life is torture, and I'm getting exhausted from it. Like in Dostoevsky's Crime and Punishment, I am someone who thinks so much that I find myself incapable of acting, incapable of being happy; my life has been nothing but bitterness.

Honestly, I'm a boring, depressed person with poor social skills. I don't find happiness in almost anything, only in being useful. I want to be useful, I want to feel useful, to feel validated. I need attention, and I'm an idiot for writing this thinking someone will read all this crap and be interested. This is almost a rant, haha.

before I dive in headfirst, I want us to be able to talk so I can create a sense of security or comfort for you. Or else, I hope you'll actually blackmail me, start dominating me without me even realizing it, and then when I do realize it, there will be no going back. There's some information about me, along with some photos, on my profile. But I'm a solitary and talkative person, ask me anything, I'll answer almost everything.

Ideally, the person I'm looking for would be:

- Someone with manipulative, sadistic, and controlling tendencies, but also open to showing affection and seeking connection.

- Give me attention, understand that I am a lonely person and that with attention or blackmail, you will probably be able to get everything from me.

- If you like The Little Prince, and the meaning of "to tame" as presented in the book, this will be an excellent bonus.

"People no longer have time to get to know anything. They buy everything ready-made in stores. But since there are no stores that sell friends, people no longer have friends. If you want a friend, tame me." - Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

(Yes, I want to be your slave, object, bitch, anything you desire that diminishes me to a position inferior to yours. We don't need to be friends for this, but I would love it if we were.)

Now about me:

Well, I'll warn you upfront that I'm terrible at talking about myself, so finding that strange is normal. It's simply my inability to express myself properly.

- I don't want pity or mercy. I don't have rigid limits, only flexible ones, but I ask that more extreme fetishes like feminization in public be introduced more slowly so I can get used to it (optional). Anyone who wants to know more about my fetishes, ask me privately.

- I'm quite nerdy, and I enjoy various academic subjects.

- I am autistic, but it's a low degree and I received the diagnosis late, it doesn't influence anything. But if you want, you can use that against me at some point.

- Sometimes I may withdraw because I isolate myself, I do this to regulate myself sometimes. Don't let me do that, try to have me around.

- I have depression, I take medication and I'm seeking help, but I'm sinking deeper and deeper. I don't feel like eating, going out, nothing. I feel incredibly alone. I just wanted someone to like me, to find me useful, to miss me if I disappeared. So, I want to create bonds with you, not just be a slave, although I will be that too. Bully me, humiliate me, degrade me, make me feel like my purpose in life is to make you happy, maybe then I'll feel like I have a purpose.

- I have my problems, and I don't want a psychologist. I want someone who at most understands them, but if necessary uses them against me, and is there for me.

# If you enjoy philosophy and politics, these are the main topics I like to discuss.

- Nietzsche

- Bauman

- Schopenhauer

- Sartre

- Simone de Beauvoir

- Descartes

- Marx

- John Locke

- Cuban guerrillas

- Latin American guerrillas

- Chinese, Russian and Vietnamese revolutions

- Physics, thermodynamics, string theory, general relativity, etc.

- I've been working a bit on a thesis of mine about some things that Marx and Nietzsche say, and I believe they complement each other; I can talk more about that later.

- Attack on Titan and its ethical and moral complexities, as well as its idea of freedom.

- Fullmetal Alchemist and its physical and chemical applications and differences from reality.

My main Kinks

- Dacryphilia

- Bondage

- Impacto play

- Anal

- Deepthroat

- Training

- Degradation/humiliation/dehumanization

- Micromanagement

- Demonstration of affection

- Bully

If you're interested, send me a DM with your name, age, gender, country where you live, what interested you in this, and things like that. Feel free to ask me anything you want. Honestly, I don't care at all about appearance or age, I just want to feel less alone.

If you don't have photos on your profile, and you're not willing to show any, don't expect me to trust you so quickly; To me, you're still just a person like a hundred thousand other people; I don't need you, and you, in turn, don't need me either. But if you tame me, we will need each other, you will be unique in the world for me, and I will be unique in the world for you, and forever yours, with no way to escape. I will be trapped by my own will to remain with you (and probably by blackmail, and some other constraints).

I know it seems like a lot, but it's worth it. I hope you understand that I still have a life, and that I will strive to be available as much as possible, but that I won't always be able to. I swear I'm worth it.