Omg I need to do marital arts with someone

Once again I just want to fight a woman. Martial arts are so hot. The idea of someone improving themselves is so attractive. Something to up the excitement is being hunted then being cornered and the only option left is to fight. I just want someone who will teach me, make me want to get better and dominate me. I want to talk myself up and just lose. I just want something to overcome. Ofc this is with someone I'm dating or just close with and consensual. Why am I like this? Being hunted, fighting for attractiveness and then losing the fight

Non horny part. I wish I could learn martial arts. I really do love the practice and just love to be physical. I really need some exercise. I'm just scared to try because I'm a trans woman. I have been transitioning for 4 years and I pass for a woman for the most part. I just feel like I'm invading. I just want to learn, exercise and meet people who are passionate about it