How to deal with the pressure

Hi there,

Just embarking on this journey, going through a course to help me address the root causes of the issue as well.

The problem I am having is that I have so much pent up desire and am fighting blue balls for days. For context, I am a married man who has almost destroyed my marriage through my addiction to PMO.

My wife has made it very clear that she is disgusted with me at the moment and is not interested in doing anything to relieve the pressure, and I don't want to do anything to release that pressure without her. I am frustrated because we live in the same house, share the same bed, and share some close moments, but what I feel like I am craving is off the table.

What ways have you found that work to combat those feelings and relieve the discomfort without messing up?