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I am in my 4th year of my clg...naa nalla padipen..nalla cgpa vum iruku..recently en clg la placements start panitan so athula oru 4 companies ku apply panna adhula 3 la technical assessmant clear panna but psychometric clear panna mudiyala... ipo gate exam ku prepare panitu iruken side by side... my passion is to do research on my field but en vettula situtation ipo sari illa enga appa ku 6 months aah salary podala...en final year fee ah gold adagu vachu dhan katunom... enaku rendu younger siblings and they will be going to college from next year...so next year avangaluku fee katanum... ipo ela responsibility yum en mela varatha enala feel panna mudiyuthu aana i feel that i am not mature enough to handle this.. placements aah pathi nenachalum pressure aaguthu...ithula ena suththi elam frds um fake aah iruka maari iruku... avangal ta pesumbodhalam na sogama irukura maari kata maten...they usually mock me for silly things i do and that hurts me...na direct aah puduchu thiti vituruven but then they mock that too... i have one side feelings for my sch frd but havent confessed her...we were in good touch 8 months ago and i shared a lot things with her and also do tell all her problems and i support her metally but ghosted me after idk what was the reason...there is no contact rn.... i asked her once why you ghosted but she said she didnt... i had faced lot of bullying in my school days due to my body(lean)..apo adha na perusa eduthukala but ipo adhu insecure aah feel aguthu... nyt aana overthinking vera.... brain theva illadha mosamana situtation lam think panudhu... i know lot of ppl have worst situtation than me but idk want is the problem with me... i never had one good frd to express myself with out thinking....enala edhulaiyum focus panna mudiyala... bayama iruku...nyt thoogumboodhu heart vegama thoodikirathu kadhula ketu oru chillness aah create pannudhu...ithalam enga solrathu nu therla adhan inga solla vanthen

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