i don’t know if my experience counts or what it is.

so i know i shouldn’t be on this app but i need advice and help. i’m a 13 year old girl. and i don’t know if it’s SA or SH

im going into 8th grade this year so last year i was in 7th grade. during 7th grade their was this kid let’s call him alex. alex liked me a lot. like A LOT. and at the start of the year he was always staring at me form a far and yeah it made me uncomfortable but my best friend let’s call them nick became friends with him. so that meant alex was now sitting at our table in every class we had with him (the three of us had two classes together, advisory and third period) so alex somehow got my number i think one of my other friends gave it to him. but he texted me one day when i was home sick like asking me why i’m sick and like why i don’t want to be around him. and i didn’t know who it was so i ignored it. when i got back to school thats when it became hell. he asked me out and i told him no. he asked why and i told him i’m lesbian. (i don’t know if i’m lesbian i’m unlabeled) but i thought he would leave me alone if i said i liked girls. but that was a mistake. because he started asking if he could become a girl for me and i told him no.

in the classes we had together he started touching me. he would sit by me and take my stuff so i had to interact with him to get it back, he started touching my arms, thighs, hands, and once my chest.

it started with him holding my hand and i tried to get it away but he has a really good grip and i’m not a strong kid, i’m weak, i’m only strong in my legs from figure skating. so he would grab my hand and i would tell him multiple times to stop, let go, stop it now, leave me alone. it probably took him 4 minutes of me begging him to stop until he stopped. he would also begin to grab my thigh until it hurt, i would try to move his hand and he wouldn’t budge, id beg him to stop and when i tried to move his hand he would grab my hand. he would also just hold my arm or wrist for no reason. every time i begged him to stop and it got to the point where i had to start jabbing him to get him to let go. and of course i got in trouble for self defence.

one day he came up to me with his computer and asked “is this where you live” and showed me a picture of my house. once i got to class and he was on one of those websites where you can find peoples addresses and like phone numbers and he was finding my dad. i ended up getting a concussion and he just got worse and was taking advantage of the fact i was injured and take to “take care of me” i ended up finishing the school year online and he would still text me. during summer break (right now) he is still texting me. i blocked him and deleted his number. he found my cousins youtube channel because she’s kinda big (12.5k) and he’s harassing her asking why i’m not responding.

also so he has scared me so bad that i was home alone a day ago and i was sitting alone in my room and i heard his humming outside my window. no one was there.

i told my mom and dad about him and i think i’m homeschooling for 8th grade but that’s not enough. IM SCARED IF KIDS MY FKIN AGE NOW, I CANT BE TOUCHED BECAUSE OF HIM. MY PARENTS WONT DO ANYTHING.

i want to go to a. therapist so bad. so so so bad, but i’m really depressed and once i went and i told the truth and almost ended up in a mental hospital so now i don’t trust anyone and lie every time someone asks if i’m okay. so yay.

my main question here is, is it valid i’m terrified, what do i do, and is it SA or SH or is it just nothing.