Blacked out the whole week

Idk what’s wrong with me but everytime I black out I am convinced I got raped and get scared for STDs. Last week I blacked out the whole week cuz I found out my bf cheated on me, and I couldn’t take the pain so I drank it away. All I know is my friend picked me up and took me inside and left me there and took my key because he said I kept falling asleep although we tried to have sex, and I found a condom in my trash. But like wym tried? He took my key so my bf didn’t come in and came back the next morning but we didn’t really talk about what happened he just told me to get better. But there’s so many men in my building that just prey on me and I’m so scared one of them came in and took advantage of me. Idk I’m lowkey spiraling rn. Like what if someone gave me something and now my whole life will be ruined. I know it’s my fault because I let myself get to that point but idk does anyone else as a female get this scared of being taken advantage of or is it just me?