I might loose one of my last friends this week. I don't think i can forgive them.

Biked south, in a lot of pain still from yesterday. Arrived at the food pantry before my friend did and lay on the roadside in too much pain to stand.

They arrived about 1015am, 6th car in line. Pantry opens at 130pm.

Public health had given me the free rabies clinics, the vaccine acts as a cure as long as its given before symptoms show. The clinic is in a few days. My friend initially was going to give a ride then his wife changed her mind and wants to take her pugs to it instead since they are due in March next year, and doesn't want to take me anymore. My friend has been deflecting plans about it. Basically they decided to kick me aside and use it themselves.

There are other free clinics in the next months i suggested they take the pugs to one if those instead and gave thrm the schedule and she refused, insisting they are going to this one and that she doesn't want my dogs in her van at all.

Similarly when i tried getting a ride with them to the food pantry she refused, set in her routine of what time to leave and the route. Evrn if i offered to pay for gas she would refuse. A few times she was in a good mood and offered to bring me, then when it came time stood me up. The only way i could go was on my bike, which is only in good weather in the warm part of the year and the people there threw my bike in the bushes last time and mocked me over biking so i can't trust letting it out of my sight there, thus i have a grudge against the food pantry people for what they did before, can't use a bike to go, and can't get a ride. Its a safer option to just mentally block it and not consider it an option, openly refuse to use the food pantry. Its safer to plan on not having it and making due with other options like dandelions and raccoons than count on something that will be randomly pulled out from under me again.

My friend (his wife anyway) has a pattern of doing this kind of thing. I don't have a plan b at the moment, if i count on them and while he says they will do it i know they will stand me up again, and i will hold a grudge and the friendship will be over.

Plan b is to ask my only other friend, plan c is to attempt to shuttle back and fourth to the truck stop with bike to get gas for the tractor then use the wagon and cages strapped to it, plan d is to pick one, take him with a bike trailer and take the other to the next clinic after, plan d- is to beg the animal control office to give me a ride. Plan f is to not go, and make peace with waiting for them to get sick and put them down.

The raccoon was in the local news today as well because of the rabies. My other friend texted me about it but hasn't replied with an answer about a ride. [https://www.mymalonetelegram.com/news/publicservicenews/franklin-county-s-third-rabies-case-reported/article\_a3de98e4-d864-5bb8-8c51-e0f7498316cb.html](https://www.mymalonetelegram.com/news/publicservicenews/franklin-county-s-third-rabies-case-reported/article_a3de98e4-d864-5bb8-8c51-e0f7498316cb.html) 

I just can't seem to stay out of the news can i?

Only did 15 miles today, 320 for July so far