My First Spravato Experience: Lessons Learned

I tried Spravato after being disappointed with my first 36 TMS treatments. I live with chronic pain, PTSD, OCD, major depression, and generalized anxiety, so the experience was very intense for me.

During the session, I found myself battling thoughts like, "Is this psychosis?" "Am I going crazy?" and "Will I end up worse after this?" It was difficult to relax into the experience because I was constantly trying to evaluate and control what was happening. Unfortunately, I stayed in a heightened fight-or-flight state for the next three days.

Looking back, I think going into the session with as open and calm a mindset as possible is incredibly important. At least for me, resisting or analyzing every sensation seemed to make the experience much harder.

I'm going to try again this week with that lesson in mind. I'm hoping to approach it with more acceptance, less fear, and more trust in the process.

Wish me luck, everyone.