Embarrassed to say this

Yesterday on 4dp5dt I took 8 tests. A mix of wondfo and one first response. I feel the need to act out on this compulsion to test every single time I go to the bathroom and if I don’t I feel highly anxious and obsess over it. I know it’s poor for my mental health but I can’t stop. I must’ve taken thousands of tests over the last 4 years ttc and with IVF. I will even pack them and bring them to work. I literally will get the urge to test if I’m out running errands and come home right away. And then before IVF it was the opk tests multiple could be 12 a day. My husband suggested I stop testing today at least until the evening but I can’t fathom going the whole day without it. I even took a test 1/2DP my transfer just to relieve myself of the urge to test even though I knew they were going to be stark white of course. I’ve tried going to do activities but the second I start thinking about wanting to test I leave and come home. Has anyone else experienced this? I know I’m being completely irrational but I cannot stop. If someone walked in my bathroom at any one point the countertop is littered with tests. I’m not sure how to help myself with these compulsions. I feel momentarily better when I act on it but then a couple hours later I’m thinking about doing it again 😢