i'm done

i'm such a miserable person it doesn't matter what i buy or do or whatever i'm just a sad pathetic hermit.

i soend my entire day sitting or sleeping and i'm too lazy to go back to work (need to figure out college course registration stuff or whatever)

today i found out that the guy i like (do i like him? i'm not sure. i've never dated anyone or even held hands with anyone. perhaps i just needed something to fixate on) likes someone else. obviously, because who would like someone like me

i got a haircut last week and it's ugly. even the amazing stylist i went to couldn't save me

i went to japan for vacation and the entiew tkme i was fucking miserable because everyone there was pretty and i was an ogre.

i am now back home and spend every day sitting on my ass thinking about all the things i would like to do but don't possess the energy for. thinking about how i have no real friends, how i ignore the people who want to talk to me but chase after everyone else who doesn't, how i'm so weak i couldn't even lift my suitcase onto the overhead storage bin in the plane, how i'm just a blob of flesh that kinda sits here and does nothing noteworthy at all.

speaking if college i sold my soul and worked my ass off for 4 years and didn't get in anywhere good. not enogub transfer credits, no scholarships(wastoo lazy to applyto morethan like2), shitty school, not even honors college

is it time to go? i have no one else to complain to except reddit which is real fuckign sad
except it's my fault because no one wants to sit here and listen to me whine, yeah? who fucking cares it's gotta be miserable to have a friend like that