Hi,

I'm now in my late thirties. I experienced most of life, or at least what I'm still capable of doing. Been traumatized by my parents at an early age. Became handicapped in my late teens, which already closed a lot of dreams for me & my hobbies were a goner too. Failed my "2nd" chance at life because of me. Which was a beautiful relationship 15 year ago which lasted 6 years...the only time where i was truly happy and working hard.

Past that, i tried new hobbies and socializing but nothing ever sticks or makes fun. Also tried therapy/medication/reading about my depression in hope to get better. Unfortunately my days get darker daily and I'm kinda on the brink to kms. Since there's nothing left here for me in this world and as i age i can't live with myself at all anymore.

thanks in advance for reading, any suggestions/ideas are welcome.