Find Everything Annoying?

This is a weird post I’m aware but with depression I often hear people moreso feel sadness or numbness, but with me it’s become an unbearable irritability.

Does anyone else have that?

I want to read a book, but all the characters annoy me. I see social media posts, and every single one makes me feel jealousy, anger or irritation. It’s not even that people are necessarily doing something wrong- I just feel it’s constant noise of people going ‘me, me- look at what I’ve brought’ ‘Look at what I’m doing’ ‘Let’s complain about this’ ‘Here’s more useless information’

I try to attempt hobbies (drawing, crochet) and I end up ripping up the crochet or having to restart because I make mistakes and get upset/angry. With drawing, nothing I draw anymore looks right.

Even simply speaking to people, I get annoyed by everyones ‘archetypes’? So to speak- I see people repeat the same masks and behaviours and I become upset.

It’s as if I just want to be on a quiet mountain by myself, but at the same time I know loneliness is a key factor in depression so it’d probably get worse. Even my face/features and the way I speak and act irritates me to no end.

If anyone else get’s this please say 🙏 Feel free to give tips also