ALCOHOL ADDICTION

I'M 23M and i went out last night with my friends to have some fun but i binged drink and drank too much and was causing nuisance, we went to a secluded place to chill at night after reaching there i shouted and cussed and people who live in that area came in groups with sticks to beat us but we apologised and got it sorted out then we went to my house and started drinking again and i sorta blacked out and pressed my friends and tried to fight them

I feel super ashamed and regret and keep on getting myself in trouble with alcohol and now i decided to start my sober journey, its not the first time i blacked out and ruined the night it keeps on happening, i envy those people who stop after one or two drinks, i cant stop myself from drinking till i black out.

Need some advice!