This is what you wanted

I remember you telling me to leave because you couldn’t give me what I needed. I needed your presence. I am definitely not over you and still love you dearly but I am over this. When the good feelings wear off and the actual reality sets in with you I won’t be here anymore. I have been more patient than most could endure. But you truly don’t care. Cool. Over a decade and you couldn’t fight for us not once. I deserved better. You may say you are protecting your peace( btw I know who that came from and you care more about friends than your own wife) But I digress. It was never about healing or peace. It was always about you avoiding any kind of accountability.

Life is too short to keep believing I mean something, I don’t. You chose them over me. You let people talk bad about me, after all the shit you had done I still defended you. You never had my back EVER. You had an emotional affair and it led to more. I pray god forgives you. I hope you V and L had fun on that boat in Florida. What you have done far surpasses anything I have. You totally turned into exactly the person you hated. A christian who judges, doesn’t actually repent and uses the bible to avoid accountability. You have never even apologized properly. I wasted my best years. Stay sober. Stop smoking weed. And STOP being judgmental. You are no better than anyone else.