Can anyone advise me .

I have dreams that, if distributed across the entire planet, would be enough for it.
How can I make my dreams into reality.
I am doing what i am seeing it’s right to do
I am 18 years old .

My biggest problem i am facing and don’t know how to fix it is I have been suffering from gender identity disorder for seven years, and every time I try not to disobey my Lord, it comes back stronger and stronger thoughts come.
I think to marry is best solution for the problem so I am trying to get money to marry as fast I can .