I don’t want to be stuck in a loveless marriage 😭

Recently nag-uban mi balik sa akong parents. Mafeel gyud nako nga wala silay love sa usag-usa. Akong papa never gyud gi compliment akong mama and vice versa. Now that I’m older, mas na notice gyud nako na walay affection sa ilang relationship. Mura silag naay resentment sa each other, I don’t feel like they even like each other tbh. akong papa sge gihapon tan’aw mga sexy nga babae online and irl unya akong mama grabe kaayog insecurities sa life. I love my parents so much but I dont want to end up like them 🥺 and the thing is, I am in a long term relationship nga nakitaan na nako signs ako uyab na mapareha siyas akong dad (and his wandering eyes) and yes, naay cheating involved. 💔

I love my boyfriend, and ganahan ko hatagan syag chance. but wala na lain next step sa amo relationship but marriage and I really don’t want to be an unhappy wife like my mom 😭

I feel like it’s too late for me to find someone who will truly love me, but I feel like if i marry my bf he will end up like my dad. Mao gyud ni sige nako hunahuna these past few days. Sige kog ampo nga ‘Lord, musettle nalang ba ko ani? Mao na gyud ni ako pamanhunon?’

Wala pako kadawat og tubag, pero I truly, truly hope I end up with someone who loves me. Kanang love na dili fleeting, dili based on fleeting things like looks and body. I hope I end up with someone who actually likes me and enjoys being with me, like a lifelong friend. I can only hope. 🥹